Month: February 2005

  • dear me, I think my Clowne site will have to drop their shame list!


    Here is Sophie Lucy Morgan.


    Every writer has a child in them, I think poets more than others, it’s their view of looking to life. I am also a great mimic, when I had a children’s column in my paper I had children of my own, now I have grandchildren, and of course memories to find the voice of Sophie, and she’s easier for me than Tiffy to write-act.


    I have given Sophie her first prose-creation. Here, and as this is a poetry blog, I have added a poem.


    A story I wrote. It’s all a story, I didn’t have a cold, I saw no angel and I didn’t say anything to mummy like I did in the story. But she’s reading the story now!


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    “So” I said, “tell me a story about a girl

    A girl who was ill,

    Like me.”



    He sat on my bed and put his finger to his mouth and hushed me.

    “Don’t let anyone else hear you child.” it, he,it sat on my bed and said “don’t let anyone else hear you child, if I fly away, I can’t get back.”



    “Do not sigh

    As I sit on your bed,

    I’m not an evil man

    Just cos I’m dead.”



    The angel gave his wings a flap and giggled. The angel knew he should have not have drank that bottle of fresh air, it made him go all weird, now why was he here?



    “There was a child” he began, just like you.



    The angel tickled my tummy through my knightie, stranger-danger thoughts made him jump. He realised he should not have done that. “Talk but never touch!” he was told, but the angel had died when one of his children was the girl’s age, and he felt remorse for going off to battle against some stupid Scot called Wee Bonnie Charlie.



    The angel spoke “We won you know!”



    “Sorry” I said, “won what?”



    “Oh dear child” the ghost said, “it’s a long time since I visited a child, you could always hug them, they liked angels hugging them, if I was an angel LADY…?”



    “You’re not!” I snapped. “You promised me a wish, my wish is a story about a girl like me and in verse!”



    “There was this girl

    Just like you,

    Lived in a cottage

    Below a hill.”



    Her father looked for her,

    But he was a fool

    And left her all day

    Eating rancid gruel.



    Whilst he pubbed

    On liquid grub…

    Do we HAVE to do it in rhyme

    It takes up too much time!”



    I relented. “Ok, try prose.” I was tired and ill, and this angel was peeing me off! I sneezed over him.



    He slapped his face and took his head off and shook it to my amazement, but he done it comically so I wasn’t scared.



    “So, he left his child at home, and some bad men were about and so the angel sat on the bed and scared them away.”



    I jumped.



    “I didn’t mean you were in danger, only the girl in the story! The angel scared the bad men away and they fell into a ditch and died of fright, cos to people who do see me, only special ones like you see me as angels, the rest see me, if at all, like a ghost!”



    “Can I go to sleep?”



    But he rambled on and I fell asleep, the angel was still talking when…



    I woke up and it was morning, and my cold from last night was gone.



    “I saw an angel Mummy!” I said, “he told me a funny story, but I fell asleep, but I learnt one thing, he thinks like I, a lot of thoughts all entering my head the same time, none more important than any other except when someone is talking to me.”







    Sophie.



    P:S: So I wrote the above story about an angel who thinks like me, who finds it hard to grab the most important sensation or event out of so many.







    Sophie Lucy Morgan. (Aged Ten.)


     



    The snow that fell in the morning

    was gone by the time

    I arrived home from school.



    We never did make our snowman, Mummy;

    and after you had found

    a lovely carrot for it’s nose!





    Sophie Lucy Morgan (aged 10)

    —-

    (have aged Sophie, but will keep her aged ten. The post below was wrote two years ago when Sophie was eight.)
    Sophie Lucy Morgan (aged nine)



    All good ficticious children from tintin to Bart Simpson does not age, nor will Sophie. Fiction of course she is, though based on my own daughter Rachel (who herself is very clever and had poems published at 8, including in a Brownie magazine), in a way Sophie’s view of life is my own, because in reality I am the eternal child always at odds with the world.



    Sophie’s two main friends is nine year old Emily, (a twin, and although Sophie and the other twin, Emma, does not get on very well, the three are often together:) and Elgar, a ten year old black boy whose brother is constantly in trouble with the police, and who himself smokes reefers.



    The other people in her life is her Mother, kind, thoughtful, loving, but a little too wrapped up in herself to understand her child, her four grand-parents, each one subjects of poems, the mother’s mother tries to bring up Sophie to be a little lady, not something the tom-boyish girl wants. Then there is her father and “HER” she sees every other weekend. “Her” or her father’s “bit of stuff” and Sophie hate each other’s guts, and doesn’t the reader of her poems know it!



    Another of her friends is the Catholic Priest who tries unsuccessfully to hide from the child and yet feels something for her, who, like all my personae (except Bob Smartass) is deep inside, very lonely. Despite her age and sex, Sophie is an alter girl and most things else in the church which is situated right next door to Sophie’s house.



    Finally there is her school on some rough estate in Oxford (though not based on any actual estate). This school is like all RC schools full of religion and hyprocisy.



    Only three of my personae are religious, The Rev. Tobias Trontby, Blinky-Head of the Sarahs’ and Sophie.



    For in a way, both The Rev Toby and Sophie see Jesus in the same light, far far removed from The Passion Of the Christ, more of “Away In The Manger”.

  • p.s. be online friday night to answer you all.


    SPOTLIGHT ON TIFFY WITHERINGTON.


    Tiffy Witherington.



    Tiffy, real name Taffy, (she’s Welsh) owns a small pub in Hoddesdon just north of London.

      She was given the pub by her uncle as he considered she was the best person to run it. This broke off relations with most of the rest of her family, but she enjoys running the pub and is behind the bar most evenings and indeed most lunchtimes.



    Tiffy has been twice married, both times to no-gooders. She has a daughter aged 23 and a son aged 26 who is in jail.



    Like the beer she serves, she can be bitter or mild or full of honey. She is warm and friendly and laughs a lot, but deep inside her 46 year old body she is ridden with depression and she is slowly drinking herself to an early grave.

     

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    Kindertotenlieder.

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    a swing that a child once played upon.



    flowers that a child once picked for me.



    i close the door to my garden and i cry.



    and i stroke the cat that the child once loved.





    Tiffy Witherington


     


    “I want to be a star mummy”

    _________________________



    I went to visit

    my son in jail.

    A 233-mile round trip.



    And for the whole hour

    that I was there

    He blamed me for everything.



    Why do I bother

    once a bloody month

    to see such an ungrateful son

    one that seems to hate me so?



    As if it was I

    who had raped that woman

    and who had pulled that trigger

    to kill the policeman.



    All I did was

    to bring him up

    to love the world

    and to believe in God.



    He said once

    that he wanted to be a star.

    It makes me hate

    looking upwards

    upon a clear night.





    Tiffy Witherington.



    “Some Fell On Thorns”

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    My eyes are not the flowers

    Of Spring anymore.

    It is cold.



    My face is hid in powder

    Of prolonged youth.



    I long once more

    For that whistle.

    That leer…



    Yet I once hated those men

    Undressing each whispering flesh.



    All icy lovers do now

    Is talk of the past.



    I look in vain

    For that sudden movement

    Of excitement

    In their eyes,

    When I sit, legs wide

    Across to them.



    Now it is a cough

    An embarrassed look-away.



    So I hitch down my dress

    And stare out of the window.



    It too, is old

    And full of strange dust.





    Tiffy Witherington.



     

    Tiffy’s Poems:


     

    Picture “Tiffy’s pub”

  • New poem on the CLOWNE BLOG, as it might be next weekend I have time to come here. Roll on end of Hilary term!


    Dear patient viewers, Work and pain curses me again this week. I have answered few of your lovely comments on any of my sites.


    I am updating this one and will get to you in time, but to be sodding awkward, I’ll close this comment box, visit me if you want on the Clowne site. For I feel guilty as it is visiting so few of you!


    Terry.


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    when your local paper

    has a swastika

    on it’s front cover

    and proud pictures of

    german soldiers marching

    to the sound of dying jews:



    then the only use for the paper

    is to burn it

    and warm oneself

    upon it’s filth.



    what has happened to you norway?

    what have you become?





    Ingar Gǿrse

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    one can’t get one’s body warm in winter

    this far north.



    but there’s so much warmth

    that can come from you dear child,

    from your smiling eyes

    and your tiny gripping hands.



    it is freezing outside

    but i am hot

    with the love of motherhood.



    oh, watch me burn away the ice

    off of our cold roof!





    Ingar Gǿrse

     

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    Are they worth it?



    When new people move into the village

    I tend to visit them

    Shake their hands

    And tell them that

    The church is always open to them.



    I rarely see them again

    Except in their 4 X 4′s

    On a Sunday morning

    Going off shopping.



    Sometimes I wonder if

    It’s all worth it,

    Worth the time and effect

    Even to be nice to such people.



    But it’s not for me to judge,

    There is one higher than me

    Who will know Himself…


     

    Are they worth it?







    The Reverend Tobias Trontby  +


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    The_Clowne_from_Clown
    for any comments. Else just smile or groan to yourself, none of the above poems is a classic in any case.

  • To be eaten by a cow

    In the darkness of war

    Is the final insult for a body

    Once loved for it’s beauty,

    To be cudded in a field

    And turned into a pat

    So as to feed the thistles.



    What else is there left,

    Brave clover of the day,

    You who killed for

    Your king-cup and country

    In two world wars,

    Only to die broken

    And in between bovine gums?



    What else is there left

    But to feed the next generation

    Where red clover fights white

    In the battle against evils

    In the wars to end all wars

    On the distant shores of France?





    Jacques du Lumière

     

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    Three Little Poems by Me.

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    In the wind

    the plastic bag

    swirls round & round

    like a small child

    at a dance.







    the dog-ends clutter

    at the bus stop,

    as fish around food.







    The moon slides on my pillow

    as I count the chimes of the brass clock.



    I wonder if God is awake too,

    troubled by dreams?





    Sophie Lucy Morgan (aged 10)

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    Tin Jail



    When daddy takes me out

    into the countryside,

    he rarely leaves he car

    and doesn’t want me

    to go out of his sight.



    The result is

    instead of exploring fields and woods,

    I’ve got to play

    by a lot of crappy pieces of tin

    all of them full of fat lazy men

    who can not walk a mile.







    Sophie Lucy Morgan (aged 10)

     

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    Sites also updated:

    The_Clowne_from_Clown UPDATED 14th Feb

  • Closed down my Clowne site, got pissed off with certain rude comments there. If my real life is that bad then screw it cos you won’t get it!


    With 2 insults there and the Sarahs’ getting banned from a site for a bit of teasing I lost my rag. But I don’t care, everything I posted on my Clowne site of any worth is in my Homestead. There will be no more the real me on Xanga.


    NOTE Site still there, so posted on it!


    http://www.xanga.com/The_Clowne_from_Clown


    Not sure if it will stay there. Next Poems on Saturday.


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    “Purple Thistle Landscape”





    Purple thistles

    In green grass drinks

    And stings my trumpet eyes,

    Tower their mauve fingers around my neck

    And suffocate me with cotton wool.



    My hammer heart,

    Lonely and broken

    Steps out of its savage beat

    And soaks the cowmud into my bowels

    Deranges the blue of the sky

    Into an alien mudscape.



    All around

    Voices whisper

    As I wrap my cloak of newspapers

    Around my drizzle bones

    And try to sleep in the stretched skin

    Of my mind.



    The sounds

    Vibrate in the wind of august leaves

    Sticking the gum in the stars

    Around my black ears

    Hearing the ghostly

    Speeches of purple kings

    In robes of silk

    Shut in their majesty

    Of thistledown regiments…



    (The night turns cold.)

     

    blackie fortuna.

     

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    Haiku: February 2005 (second page)

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    to the mother,



    a child’s picked dandelions



    are more beautiful



    than any rose.





    —–





    growing up:



    his comfort-blanket

    is in the bin





    —–





    foggy morning:



    another puff

    on his spray





    —–





    dawn choras:



    he wipes down

    his windscreen





    —–



    giving her baby life

    from her breast



    is deemed disgusting





    —–





    small island:



    I jump off the boat



    to seek silence





    —–





    sweet sixteen: 





    she sits under a tree



    writing love-letters



    in her day-dreams







    ——————-



    Dandelion Leaves.

  • THREE POEMS.





    “Stuck”.



    God moves in a mysterious way,

    I know that this is true.



    For God hath made this piece of wood

    And this infernal super-glue!



    —–



    “Ringing For God”.



    I threw the dirt on the coffin,

    I said all the right things,

    It was then that we all heard

    The dead man’s mobile ring.



    —–



    “The Light”.



    And God lit up our darkness,

    And what then did I see?



    Man’s inhumanity to man,



    And this lovely cup of tea.



    —–



    The Reverend Tobias Trontby +


     

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    a beautiful sunset:



    and behind me…



    the moon





    ________________



    bed-ridden

    and looking at the flowers



    on the wallpaper





    ________________



    the spider

    spins it’s web

    across my door



    does it think



    i’m not at home?





    ________________



    the rain

    adding

    an extra beat



    to the carnival





    ________________



    no longer seeing

    your shadow

    next to mine



    white lilies…





    ________________



    still making tea for two



    newly-made widow





    ________________



    “Dandelion Leaves”

    ____________________

     

    On the Three_Headed_Sarahs  site; Two Texts and a play: “The Toilet-Paper Fairy”

  • I had three days off this week, sunday-tuesday, and I was going to update this blog but of course the bug ruined my plans. You will have to wait till Saturday now for new poems.


    Meanwhile I have visited many of my commenters and tormentors via the Three_Headed_Sarahs site. Those I have not, I am sorry. Complain to Xanga!


    ps On the Sarahs’ site 2 texts and a play that stars George W. Bush and a Lavatory brush!